kelu lidah nak berkata, pedih hati makin terasa. mana nak di luah hati yang luka, jiwa kecewa sang gelap bertakhta. wajah derita, batin tersiksa kata kita menjadi dusta, kata mereka menjadi bangga. pekak telinga butakan mata, sang kecil tercicir menjadi mangsa. segenggam nasi di pagi hari, malam entah siapa yang tahu. menagih kasih nasib sendiri, menangis simpati, tak siapa membantu. dalam genggam ada janji, dalam janji ada sumpah dalam setia ada erti, dalam erti itu... entah! mana lagu, pengubat zaman mana bantu, menolak angan mana hati, mari luahkan mana teguh, aku nantikan

kau jerihkan keringat kau pedihkan perutmu kau sakitkan tangan kau hilangkan rasa cemburu cemburu yang menghantui perasaan jiwa yang menggilai kesenangan apakah keadilan menyalakan kemarahan? pemberontakan, apakah itu tanda kesakitan? kau tenang dalam kehidupan namun pedih kenang kekurangan kau kuatkan jiwa, cekal dalam kesedihan sungguh tiada yang simpati? kemana hilang dunia yang ku kagumi? hati mana keras sang batu luka sedikit ditangisi selalu bila siang takutkan jembalang namun ber-syaitan di tengah malam ah, dunia sungguh coretan, coretkan peribadi rasa rasa di hati pandangan dan perasaan yang tercengkam, tersepit dan terurai sedih, pedih itukah yang mereka rasai?

i love living in my house, love my family, my neighbours, and all.. but what is the place called "home"? is it where we are living now with all that family and all? or was it just a house? or a living place even it's just a small box? and what about "no place like home"? what is the meaning? i love to be in my house, but most of the time, i was bored.. games, computers, books, foods, that's all.. while outside, i have friends, teh tarik, girls (hehe), and i have a freedom outside.. so why they say no place like home? was it too nice to be at home? or maybe their lifestyle make them feel so good to be home compare to other places? well i just wonder.. dont blame me ya :P there's a place where i saw a woman she was in red talkin to me but in a blurry face, i smile and she smilled at me, too a kiss.. a hug.. she loves me so much, i know there's a place people tought me how to walk and i questioned myself "do i need to learn this?" till the day after i saw a girl calling me offering me something i know i want it regardless of what it was.. then i know i need to walk yes, i ...

once you had one.. you think that's enough stay, you stay.. cheer, you cheer happy damn you'll feel lucky to have the one u love blowing away the lonelyness never feel the emptyness what a life.. unexpected.. when another comes along with a deep heart on you bring the crazyness on you feelin hard on you what will you do? by lie, as in a friendship matter tryin hard to avoid a little feelin on them that you had long ago cause you think, ain't good enough to aproach him/her but once they tells you all the feelin on you what will you do? once the crazy heart beats drastically what will you do? once the feelin keep increasing what will you do? and what will you do when they really hope for you and the one you love... what will you do? and the feelin on your love?

Background: This poem IS in reference to the 1920s X-ray technician, and an ill-fated patient who died of tuberculosis. The woman's name was Maria Elena de Hoyos, whose decomposed body was kept for 8 years by Count Carl von Cosel, a one-time radiologic technologist at Marine Hospital, a now defunct facility. After Her body was discovered, von Cosel was jailed, and later released. In Death, if Death were the end, if Death were divine A thousand kisses on forbidden lips, will come in time. To waste away to nothing, one who cannot be saved, I throw my arms around you, where in silence you are laid. In dark midnight I do creep, unto the wooden door Open it with a heavy heart, and place the candles on the floor. In the warm pale glow I lift you, down in front of me, Tangle my limbs together with yours, to feel what Angels feel. My sorrow for your passing grows ten fold with each day I still desire you beside me, even as your beauty fades with decay. I cannot let you leave me alone, to suffer this life without you here, I'm going to take you home again; I need you to stay eternally near. I steal you away from the cold damnation, ...