so i’m going 24 this year, without a degree, not even a diplome in hand. and all i have is only a matriculation certificate, which wont help me in finding job..

now i feel like i’ve wasted all my time, all these years.. been in UTM for 3 semester, did the civil eng. degree up to third year, only.. it’s so sad when i remember those years.. years of i thought i might be doing well by making myself active with all the activities i joined. yeah, i was one of the most active member of the civil eng. society, selected to be the prog. director for few programes, and finally i’ve forgotten the purpose for entering UTM, which is to graduate, hold a degree, and get a job as engineer..

not only that, i enjoyed a lot, celebrating the happiness for being in university. and so i joined the Naval volunteer officer, under the PALAPES Laut management, UTM. even trying to make myself healthy and making lots of friend, has driven me far far away from getting my degree..

i dont know if you can take this as a lesson. and it sounded like i’m a looser. i dont know. how am i supposed to?

and just two years ago, after UTM, i’ve decided to do architecture at Alif Academy. not because i was regret with eng. programe, but because i am more into architecture. i’m good at drawings, especially when it comes to buildings, all the civil drawings.. yes i’m really good at it.

but after few duscussion with my dear brother, he still want me to be an engineer. so there it goes, KBU was next, and no Alif Academy. I respect his desicion though i know which suit me the best. but elder, they always know better.

but now, i’m no longer not at KBU. why? because i found it so hard to do electrical electronic engineering. i cant coup with some subject, especially when the course offers no ‘hands on’ subject like those you can find in mechanical and civil engineering. to me, electrical and electronic eng. needs an analitical thinking skills, which i’m not really good at, so i resign the course just before the final exam. regret? no. at least i learned quite a lot of things. enuff said, i don have to explain more, do i?

so i entered Taylors College, finally the best place for me. here, i registered for the mechanical eng. degree, in collaboration with the Sheffield University, UK.

did the first semester, then i thought to myself, “why dont i choose this subject before? why dont i enter this college before?” now you imagine why i have this thought..

the syllabus are too good to me. i finally manage to do well in my study. but unfortunately at one stage, i lose myself. i was too happy, again i enjoyed. then i nearly failed. phew!

last september 2005, was the month of departure from KLIA to Manchester City, on the way to Sheffield. all my classmates went on board, but me. now all the reason was, i am pennyless.. yes. not that no one can support me, but because finally, i have decided to earn money on my own, and start doing things on my own efford. in other words, be independent. this decision i made, cost me a lot.. but i’m proud for at least i have decided on something. my life.

why should i disturb my dear family to support me with thousands of money? they have their life to care of too, their dream to achieve, and their desire..

i’m working, working hard now. forget about everything.

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